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mahar's avatar

I read a post on substack that said we are not the figs, but the fig tree, forever giving birth to new opportunities (figs). It doesn't matter if the old ones die, you can still grow new figs. It was such a beautiful post, it made me realise that the real tragedy is that we've been convinced that we can only pick one of the figs and that will define us for the rest of our lives when we are actually the trees giving birth to the figs.

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alba leao's avatar

wow I love love that point of view, thank you! We are not our professions or choices, we are just who we are, so yes I’m a little fig tree branch

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Zoe's avatar

I wrote that piece! But I loved this @alba leao bravo 👏🏻

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alba leao's avatar

how coool!!! thank you Zoe, going to read that piece asap

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mahar's avatar

thank god i found you again

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Sajdah's avatar

So beautiful

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alba leao's avatar

thank you! 🥹check out my new post!

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Mia McAteer's avatar

I like to think about it this way.. you will eat alot of figs in your life some are ripe and delicious and others not ready yet, you can always stop eating that fig and try another one.

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alba leao's avatar

I like that, some are rotten too, but we dont have to stick to one!! thank you Mia 😊

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patty's avatar

This was so beautifully written, what a blessing it is to live a life long enough to get to experience so many figs. Eras. Personas. Life. How lucky and cursed are we who crave to savor and experience all that life can offer. The simplicity, the complexity and the eternal love that come with living a life that is only yours.

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alba leao's avatar

thank you patti it is a blessing indeed <3

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Alaya's avatar

I think society always pressures us to pursue a career, gain extensive experience, and stick to it. We want to label ourselves as a “ballerina,” ‘doctor,’ ‘journalist,’ or ‘actress.’ But why not ‘everything’? As Lord Henry said, “To define is to limit,” so don’t limit yourself. I think it’s absolutely cool that you’re exploring every passion whenever you feel drawn to it. Amazing piece!

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alba leao's avatar

yes yes! Also I think it was Einstein that said that knowing what you are going to be is a curse because you will be that. So true. Thank you Alaya means so much 🥹

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Liney's avatar

Thank you for sharing, it's really comforting in way to read your words and realize "i'm not the only one who wants to experience living multiple lives in one life"

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alba leao's avatar

thank you! I also love when I relate to another woman’s thoughts, happy women’s day :)

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Kaya Callahan's avatar

DEEPLY felt that section about watching a movie and coming out of it being so inspired to do whatever the movie was about especially when it’s a film about something creative

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alba leao's avatar

yes yes yes!! I feel different almost

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Irene Salinas's avatar

I appreciate how you explained this feeling, my husband has been a professional cyclist and artist at very high degrees and i have pegged myself into accounting bc to be great at anything you have to dedicate years and years and i haven’t achieved what i feel he has in his disciplines. You’re writing is a comforting read, i may let go of accounting and go try another fig, bc I can.

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alba leao's avatar

thank you for your kind words <3

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alba leao's avatar

yes! and also, we don’t have to be the best at something to really enjoy it, it’s an idea that we have fully set in our minds but it’s not true

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EgoDeath's avatar

This majorly reminds me of The Worst Person In The World (Dir Joachim Trier) ✨ fantastic film, fantastic post

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alba leao's avatar

love that movie!! thank you 🥹

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Wambúi's avatar

I resonate with the piece and the comments so much. I took a recommendation from this and watched The Worst Person in the World and I've really loved it🥹 thank you!

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Anita Olih's avatar

I feel to seen 🥹

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alba leao's avatar

💗me too

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sarah 🫒's avatar

It's so nice to realize so many others feel the same way you do, thanks for sharing and thanks to everyone in the comments because these are great ways to change our perception of things

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alba leao's avatar

yes It is I’m so glad I posted this, I felt kind of alone on this and I’ve realized we all feel this 🥹

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alexa's avatar

I like to think I can be the whole tree, and a fig doesn’t have to be your whole career (although we would mostly like it to be). I can write in a diary and call myself a writer, I can arrange some picture frames in my house like it’s my own gallery and then call myself a curator. Nobody else can label you apart from yourself. So practice and use every fig on your tree.

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alba leao's avatar

yes 🥹 the figs are nothing but an extension of the branch, so we are each and every fig

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I Think, Therefore:'s avatar

This rings so true to me it’s like you took an excerpt from my nonexistent diary and made it mean something. Thank you <3

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alba leao's avatar

that’s so nice thank you 🥹

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Michaela Ginsburg's avatar

thank you for sharing this lovely, i think this is the epitome of your 20’s. you want everything in the world but are so damn tired.. you wrote this beautifully. i think all of us will find our cozy corners of our desires and everything we need and want in life. it has a way of finding us all! 🤎

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alba leao's avatar

yes I think so too, I want everything but I want to enjoy too

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Portia's avatar

I feel like you've just described the constant issue I've felt my whole life, and in such a beautifully worded way. I want to do everything, and that combined with burnout and wanting to do nothing instead makes life such an interesting push and pull. Thanks for writing :)

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Rania's avatar

Same!!!!

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alba leao's avatar

thank you Portia 🥹 I feel the same yes! There’s days where I’m super motivated to do absolutely everything but then of doing that I have the longer periods of burnouts

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AimeeSarahCarmichael's avatar

This is so real to me. I have changed my mind countless times on what I want to do and I sometimes don’t always feel happy or that anything will fullfill me. But then the feeling of saying to people “oh I do this now I don’t do that anymore” fills me with dread

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alba leao's avatar

yes! and they are really stunned, so uncomfortable

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R💌's avatar

ohmygod this is the best article i’ve ever read and because of this i’ve followed you

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alba leao's avatar

😭😭💗💗 I followed you back thank you

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